dolly

sunday i stopped by a yard sale and found an antique doll who is about 7 inches tall with eyes that open and shut, strawberry blonde hair, and a fancy spanish flamenco outfit with sequins and gold thread.  ella has nothing like this doll, who we named "dolly."  at first she was a little bit nervous about the doll opening and shutting her eyes--she kept looking at me and saying "mommy fix it."  but now she is really sweet with her dolly.  today in the car she was eating some crackers and drinking some water and she kept offering some to dolly.  so cute.

we went to aurora's house today to play while s. went to apply for a job.  the girls and i had fun outside entertaining each other.  i guess i haven't really done much of watching ella along with another child when i'm the only adult around.  certainly not since the weather has been nice.  it was quite a new dynamic, which i liked because i got to observe these little human beings in a new situation.  they were so cute running and jumping and taking turns on the tricycle.  we "crunched" leaves and stomped our feet and tossed a ball around.  but there was a moment where we were standing on the porch spinning and stomping and aurora went to give ella a hug and ella was dizzy and they both fell over and aurora hit the back of her head on the door frame and got a huge bump.  i felt so so bad.  she was such a sweetie and didn't even cry at all.  i  immediately carried them both upstairs into the house and got out a bag of peas and sat on the couch with the peas held to her head.  after awhile aurora wanted to eat the frozen peas.  so i guess she was okay.  but such a huge bump!  all the way home and all evening i had this tugging in my throat as if ella had been the one who'd gotten her head hurt, and i kept rubbing the back of her head to check that she was okay.  i just feel so badly about it.

monday i received news that my sister-in-law miscarried on mother's day.  what a heartbreaking thing.  they've been trying for so long... it made me think of a., so i called her to ask how she was and to make sure she was okay and she told me that she had also miscarried.  i can't imagine going through all the excitement over being pregnant and planning for a baby and then to go through the pain of losing that baby.  my prayers go out for them and their families.