and counting...

this morning while i was getting elenora's breakfast together she grabbed an applesauce out of the cupboard and then she said "another" and got another one out and toddled over to me saying "two...two...two." simple math...at 16 months!

she's saying more words that have to do with describing what it is she's doing, or wanting to do. she'll say "pull" or "step" or "keep" or "hold." she'll actually say "more" instead of just signing for it.

yesterday i invited m. and nathan over and then s. called to see if ella and i wanted to spend time with her and aurora, so i had two babies and two other mothers over all afternoon. it was very fun to see these babies interacting with each other (two of them are toddlers now, actually). they all got along so well, and it was good for me to see m. and s. sometimes j. suggests that i rarely get out and do stuff with friends, but what he doesn't realize is how much socializing i do in the mid-afternoons.

today at work i got an email from j. saying that he was feeding ella lunch and then she would go down for her nap. i knew i wouldn't make it home in time to see her first, and i just got so sad. i think i'm realizing that in order to not lose an hour of play with her every day i'm going to have to get up at 6:25 am and get to work by 7 am so that i can come home by 11 and have that time before her nap. going to bed early enough to make that a possibility just seems like an impossible sacrifice (c., you know what i mean). but i have to do this in order to have that precious time with ella. this will be a huge adjustment.

there's just too much change right now, with e. leaving work and elenora's nap changes. i don't really like change...