waiting for charlie and nora

so the question has been posed: am i just counting down the days till i can leave work and have babies?

absolutely.

i guess it's the whole "my mother stayed home and was a homemaker, and it seems to me to be the best thing i could possibly do" thing. i really like my job. by that i mean that i don't dread going to work every day. and believe me, i've had those jobs where you feel sick every day on your way in and relieved every day on the way out. so if i have to have a job (and right now i really do) i appreciate that it is something i can feel good about doing. but in the long run i really just want to make my own schedule. what better way than to be a homemaker?

of course, i'm sure i'm idealizing a lot of it. in my head, i think of beautiful days of making bread and taking long walks and going to the park and having play dates and bringing out the pastels and watercolors and painting bowls of flowers with my children. i can't think of anything i would rather do.

when i was a child of seven, i remember that i wanted to be (well, a princess, first of all, but after/along with that...) a homemaker. after high school i went on to college because my parents both went to college and i love learning and i want my kids to go to college and gaining more knowledge is always a brilliant idea. but i knew that after college i wanted to eventually get married and have children and stay home with them and then be able to do all the things i haven't had time to do because of work: road trips, painting, hiking, ice skating, dancing, walking, swimming, sun bathing (with sunscreen, of course), baking, reading etc, etc. Really, just to be able to see the sunshine during the day... amazing.

i had gorgeous years after college where i traveled and read and walked and thought... and i can't wait to free myself of the eight plus hours a day i now spend at The Office. i can't wait to have someone along with me to do all of these things. i get to show someone else how to go adventuring. that really excites me.

and to have a job that excites you is rare.