sleep and binkies

elenora got her tongue-tie snipped today.

her appointment was for 12:45. at around 12:00 i suddenly realized that i needed to install the carseat in my mom's car--something i've never done in my life. j. had taken our other carseat to the fire station to get it installed in his car, but today he's at work and i just forgot that i needed to get the other one installed. i rushed up to the fire station, but the woman who installs carseats wasn't there. i rushed to ebscoland and called m. to come down and help me, but she couldn't figure it out either. finally i called n. (a father of two under two) and he came down and put it in.

we got to the appointment fifteen minutes late and ella was sound asleep in my arms in the waiting room. she makes the most precious faces when she's asleep and dreaming. lots of smiles.

the doctor stuck cotton in her mouth with a numbing solution. then he injected her tongue with Novocain. she made some unhappy faces, but kept sleeping peacefully in my arms.

then the doctor stuck his plastic-gloved fingers into her mouth and clamped around her tongue and cut the phrenulum.

elenora and i were both crying at this point. i just held her and gently rocked her and told her i love her and everything will be okay...

and that i'm sorry.

we gave her a binky. after awhile, she calmed down.

she's sleeping soundly now in her crib with warm blankets and soft stuffed animals surrounding her. her face is so peaceful again. i hope that when she awakens it will all seem to her to be a bad dream.

i hope this helps her nursing. i hope this brings her more mother's milk. i only did it because i love her and want to help her receive every good thing.

but it's hard to watch your daughter get hurt.