a little...girl.

today is exactly the half-way point in my pregnancy.

i threw up this morning.

i've taken to gagging when i brush my teeth lately. j. thought it was funny the other morning when i sang "this is my favorite part of the day" before shoving the toothbrush in my mouth. but this morning was no laughing matter when my cheerios and banana suddenly appeared at the bottom of the sink. gross. i hope this phase doesn't last long.

we're in the midst of having so much in our lives still up in the air, but one thing we have found out is that we're having a little girl.

once again, the coins are right.

the ultrasound was amazing. our little girl was opening and shutting her mouth, putting her fingers up to her face, crossing her little feet, and kicking her legs. it was so precious. i could see her heart beating strong. the nurse said she is very healthy. i think she's gorgeous. we framed all the pictures--one for j.'s desk, one for mine, and three for our bedroom. j. said the ultrasound really made the pregnancy real to him. he's so sweet--he talks to her all the time and is always lovingly asking me about her and touching my belly. he's going to be the best dad.

j. graduates with his masters in counseling in less than two weeks. cum laude. i'm so proud of him.

we've been desperately looking for an apartment the last weekend. we have one more month here and then we have to move out. everything is so expensive around here, and it's difficult to think about signing a lease when j. has not yet had the chance to do his job search. it's a matter of trust, now, and that is not always easy. i have so much compassion for him because it's very stressful for him.

i wish i could somehow make things easier.